Jess' Quest

A really long time

2010-03-03T16:17:00.000-08:00

Hey!!

Its been a while since I last posted and you can see that, cant you! I havent been having much luck with the band, whilst i have had fills inbetween i havent really had the restriction until last Saturday when the previous Thursday i had another fill which took me upto 7.5ml but i couldnt breathe properly, i was sweating, i was throwing up everywhere and i didnt have much to throw up!!

Lucky the awesome people at Circle of Care have an after hours surgeon, so 7pm Saturday night i went and saw Dr Lorenzen to take some of it out. My throwing up made my stomach so tender that i have been off work for a week, the pain was worse than the surgery!

Anyway so i got weighed on Saturday night and i was 123kg, see not much had changed since July of 125kg, but atleast its not a gain.

This incident is not the fault of the doctors, its just me, it happens. Whilst ive been sick ive been evaluating everything with my life. Its really given me motivation to actually give it another go again, my weight has dropped to 120kg in the past 5 days, scary and i know it will increase slightly but its now time to focus on my weight once and for all.

Ive finished my Nutrition Course - so thats happy, but now what do i do with a Cert III in Nutrition and Dietetic Assistance? Ive got to research about how to get back into Personal Training as i got that qualification 4 years ago and havent done anything with it.

I will post again soon, promise!!

The First Fill

2009-07-29T01:04:00.000-07:00

Its been a while, i have moved houses and haven't had the Internet connected. My last post was discussing my previous appointment and the wondering if at the following i would get a fill. Well i haven't really done any exercise, i haven't consciously walked or been to the gym.

As i waited in the clinic for Dr Ong (Lilian was away) i wondered if i had gained weight. I didn't feel like i had lost weight and when it was time to weigh it showed that i had gained 1kg! I knew this meant that i was going to get a fill. This is a great relief because i have been able to eat whatever i want. I haven't kept a food diary which i will do from Monday to see how i go.

I have an 11ml band and Dr Ong put 4ml in for me. This is the maximum of the old style of band and I'm OK with that, i feel the restriction kind of, all I've eaten today is a cup of noodles and an Iced Coffee and a few cups of tea. I am on mushies for the next two days to allow the Fill to adjust.

Its a new beginning for me - August is my month to really give this weight loss thing a go. I have signed up with a gym which is only a 5 min walk away. I start a new job on Monday which is 2km away from my new house and so i will be walking to work each day, so i will have 40mins of walking each day. I will be going to the gym 3 days a week and also taking the dog for a walk and within walking, gyming, dog walking and work i will be completing my studies as a Nutrition Assistant. Well i don't think ill be finished but i will be completing alot of subjects.

I am very excited for August! I next see the clinic again on 2nd October and i will see the Dietitian and Lilian then. First goal for the 8 weeks is to lose 10kg. I am currently 126.5kg. I believe i am for a good chance. I hope to lose more than 10kg as my high school reunion is not too far away from that.

Between Appointments

2009-07-10T15:57:00.000-07:00

I finally decided to get off my ass and jump back on Wii Fit to see how I had progressed since my birthday. I think part of me didn’t want to know because of this “lose 4kg and you won’t get a fill” well I want a fill, I don’t have any restriction and I still feel hungry yet I don’t just eat for the sake of eating anymore. This is a big effort for me and a turning point for my health.

I’ve been able to eat Garlic Bread, Beef, and Oven Baked Bread things so I’m wondering when the restriction starts! I want the restriction! Anyway so yesterday I jumped on the Wii Fit and it said 123.8kg woohooo 1.1kg lost! I’m trying to recall the last time I was that weight maybe in 2007 towards the end of the year when it just climbed and climbed and climbed. So this means from 11 May 2009 until 10 July 2009 I have lost 11.7kg.

There is 18 days until I see the surgeon and if I lose 2.9kg in that time then no fill. I hope to lose close to that though and perhaps more, I will just have to see why they would not do a fill because the whole point of this lapband was to feel full with smaller amounts of food, well I don’t right now hmm.

It’s moving week next week! I’m so excited my first house! I don’t know when I will blog again, I might do it from work but I will weigh myself again on the 20th of July because the weight difference for a few days will change and I don’t want to get into the habit of weighing myself every few days. This is literally a lifestyle change for me, and so far it is working!

Week 5 Post Op - I want more losses!

2009-06-29T02:13:00.001-07:00

End of Week 5 Post Op and I seem to be doing ok. I gained 400grams however I weighed myself on Saturday cos I wanted to know that this time next year I can say I was ..... So that technically means I lost 500grams. So I am now 125kg even. I think I’m trying to remember what Wii Fit said this morning.

I think I’m doing well, I’m loving the mushy stage just had Baked Beans for dinner; I really want to feel a restriction though. I want to know that with a small amount of food I am full and couldn’t possibly eat anymore. Well I will have to wait until 28 July and hope that they will give me a fill. Although even if I do lose 4kg in that time I’ll be happy with that. I think I need to start writing a food diary and I will do that when I start solids I need something that I look at and monitor although I do spend most of my time online I’m hoping there might be some online one that is free.

Nothing else to report really – my house is going to settle in 17 days, it’s my partner’s birthday next week and I have to think of something to get him. Why are men so hard to buy for? I will weigh myself again on Thursday and see how I am going; I really hope to get less than 125kg I do not want to see another gain. I so really want to get less than 120kg!

First Post Op Appointment

2009-06-24T23:10:00.000-07:00

Why is it that when you make appointments no one is ever ready for you? I spent about 5 minutes with Dr Kow, she just checked out my where she cut into me and asked if I am ok to exercise. I said Yes to this obviously, anything to keep my weight loss progressing and I didn’t lie I am ok to exercise. So I am all booked in to do their 6 week exercise thingo with a therapist first appointment is 6 August. I am allowed to head back to the gym but I have to take it easy. I am so going to the gym tomorrow morning I wonder if I’ll be able to get myself up like I used too.

I also saw Nick the Dietician, he was impressed with my weight loss, and he said I’ve lost 13kg since March woohoo, just wait til I’m in the gym hahaha. The scales at the clinic said I’m 125.5kg! He gave me an eating plan for when I start solids on the 6 July. It seems alright hopefully I won’t feel hungry and I sooo want to get my first fill. Dr Kow said no to a fill because I haven’t even got to the solid stage (I kind of knew that, I was pushing my luck hehe). She said that if I am losing less than 1kg per week in the solid stage then 28 July when I see her next I'll be able to get my fill! I want my fill!!!

Oh, it’s my birthday on Saturday and Nick said I can have a cocktail but it will go straight to my head and don’t make myself sick. Which I won’t. Oh, and I can Diet Soft Drinks, I thought I would never be allowed them again. This was an awesome day!

After a few days of mushies

2009-06-24T02:49:00.000-07:00

Ok so I’m back from Melbourne and I had the best time! I love that city just awesome! I didn’t jump on Wii Fit on Monday morning because by the time I had gotten home it was 930am! So I weighed myself yesterday and Wii Fit said I had gained 1.1kg! A Gain, my first Gain. I think it’s because I started to eat real food ha-ha. I ate awesome scrambled eggs with hollandaise sauce for breakfast, lunch was whatever we were around usually something salady and dinner was fish and chips or spaghetti. I also had a few Krispy Kreme donuts and you know what I think I am over them, I don’t get the same OMG this is heaven feeling anymore when I eat them.

Funny thing though on the flight over to Melbourne everything went great, when I got on the Skybus suddenly I had a feeling of my stomach tightening. I just needed to sit in my seat and breathe slowly for about 10 mins and then I was normal again. I expected to have the same thing landing into Adelaide but no I was fine. I’m going to ask Dr Kow tomorrow seems as I am seeing Dr Kow and I just don’t know what to expect it shall be very interesting. I’m sure I must be doing something wrong because no one is perfect!

Mid Week Weigh In - Please Explain

2009-06-17T15:50:00.000-07:00

Its Thursday everyone and we all know what this means, I’m starting mushies today!!!! I am so excited but a bit nervous because a friend of mine told me about an experience of food getting stuck and I don’t want that to happen to me, but I guess I will take it easy. So to keep myself going and also to mark the end of the liquid faze I jumped on the Wii Fit.

I was expecting to see a loss of say 200grams, I felt heavier too and I was just waiting. I watched my Mii Character get fatter and fatter and fatter and then it stopped. I have lost 1.4kg in 3 days? How is that possible, either way I’m not too concerned I lost 1.4kg! This means I am now 124.3kg I don’t know how long it’s been since I was that weight.

This time next week I am seeing Doctor Kow, and my mini goal of getting less than 120kg does not seem to be realistic. In total now since the beginning of the Pre Op Diet I have now lost 11.2kg! I have never been this successful at weight loss ever, this is the best decision I have made for my health physically and emotionally! I will post when I get back from Melbourne, I am flying there today. I will just have to make sure I don’t eat anything etc until I have weighed myself on Wii Fit, I should be at home by 8.30am I can do that right? Time will tell.

Week 3 Completed

2009-06-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

Weigh In Week 3 Post Surgery, I was hoping to see that I would maintain that 700gram loss from Thursday and if I gained any of it back. I jumped onto Wii Fit and watched my little Mii Character get fatter and fatter and fatter until it stopped and said 300gram loss! So that’s 1kg gone in 1 week! I don’t have any restriction yet and I’m hoping that maybe I will lose more in the weeks to come.

As I’m seeing Dr Kow next Thursday I’m wondering if she will give me a fill, I don’t believe so seems when I see her I will not even be on the solid stage yet. I will ask her though when I can have my first fill. So guys this means I am now 125.7kg and a total loss of 9.8kg! That 200grams got away from me but next week I will smash the 10kg mark depending on my eating. I will weigh in again on Thursday morning and ill post Thursday morning too, I have a lot going on Thursday to Sunday and it will be a test to see if I have lost and kept it off. I am starting Mushies on Thursday I’m so excited for Scrambled Eggs!!!! Omg Eggs!!!!

Mid Week Weigh In

2009-06-11T01:36:00.001-07:00

Ok so it’s Thursday and as I promised I jumped on the mighty Wii Fit and let the Wii Board decide my fate for my “mid week weight” I was watching the BMI thing climb and climb and climb no wait it’s still climbing when it said 700grms lost! Wooohooo I’m now 126kg even, although I shouldn’t really be counting this as a weight loss yet, not til Monday anyway.

I am so relieved that I haven’t stalled for another week. I have my birthday in a fortnight and I want to look semi ok. I hope that when I weigh in again on Monday it will say 125kg, I just hope I can get to my goal of being under 120kg when I see Dr Lilian Kow again on the 25th of June which is exactly two weeks today. I have one more week left on Liquid and then I get mushies, I am deliriously excited to eat scrambled eggs and mashed potatoes and feel human. No doubt at work I will continue on my shake and soup thing, but at dinner omg egg me out baby!

Oh! Note to everyone who got those wicked pain killers when they were discharged from hospital. I had a huge headache and decided to use them. Big mistake Big! (Imagine in Pretty Woman when she goes back into the shop after they wouldn’t sell her clothes) I felt soooooo sick, I could hardly move, I felt dizzy, I threw up! Just a small bit but all I thought was OMG I threw up, I’m not allowed to throw up with the band and I’m freaking out that maybe my band has moved. I’m sure it hasn’t but hmmm. NO HOSPITAL PILLS EVER AGAIN!

End of Week 2 - The Things That Make You Go Hmm

2009-06-07T16:48:00.001-07:00

End of Week Two and it was time to weigh in – I thought that I would not lose 4kg but maybe 1 to 2 kg, instead I jumped on the Wii Fit and it goes 0.0kg! I lost nothing! Not even 100grams. This to me means that I think I have the nutrition down I just need to do exercise. I am going to call the clinic tomorrow and see when I can head back into the gym otherwise ill just play on Wii Fit.

I feel disappointed with not even having a loss, but I guess it’s not a gain and I should think of it like that. I will be more diligent this week!

I will post more often this week to keep me more on track, maybe this posting once a week isn’t a good thing. So I will now post every couple of days. I am going to weigh myself on Thursday morning to see how I am going just for this week only. Wish me luck!

1 Week On

2009-05-31T16:25:00.000-07:00

It has been an interesting week, mainly the job interview process and then relying on liquids for food!

I have craved solids, fish and chips when my friend and I went for a walk. A roast chicken dinner that Bens dad can make - omg it was a temptation sitting there at the kitchen table last night. But I just drank my Chicken Soup instead.

I woke up this morning and went onto the trusty Wii Fit for my weigh in. My BMI has gone to 40.1 which means I have lost another 4kg!!! I am now sitting at 126.7kg! I have lost 8.8kg in 3 weeks that’s insane; I’ve never lost that amount. I am no longer in the 130's it is such a great feeling. I hope that by the time I see my surgeon on 25 June that I will be down into my 110's! Wouldn’t that be awesome?

On a post called My Progress I’ve put a chart on there to track my loss, weight and bmi so you can always have a look at that.

My Progress

2009-05-31T16:15:00.001-07:00

5 days on ....

2009-05-29T14:54:00.001-07:00

It’s been 5 days since my surgery and what a few days it has been. I was released as you all know on Tuesday; Tuesday afternoon was advised that I have a job interview the following day. I made sure I was drugged up enough to go. That was ok, the train ride and tram ride was good, it was nice to get out. I got home and everything was good I just needed a sleep the morning really took it out of me. I received a call late that afternoon saying I was successful for another interview the following day. The following day was the same, I woke up but I didn’t take anything (silly me) throughout the interview my stomach kept on churning and I don’t think I put on my best performance. Whatever happens happens really.

So I thought Thursday would be a rest day but I had the second interview, and then I had to pick Ben up from work and then we were heading to a concert (Pussycat Dolls feat Lady Gaga) I really tried to enjoy every moment of it but it just couldn’t my stomach was off a bit. Yesterday was good, I just relaxed read my book, my friend Sez came over with her puppy – now I’m not good with walking long distances yet, so we just walked about 500m to a kiosk by the water and got some lunch. Sez ordered fish and chips and omg it smelt dandy. Only another 3 more weeks then I can have some mashed up fish! I then continued to read my book for the rest of the afternoon except my dog Josie who was desexed on Monday decided to rip out her stitches so we took her to the vet and now she has a bucket on her head, she looks so funny!

I am a bit concerned with how my stomach (if it’s even that) is reacting. It makes a feeling of something being stuck then it shifts itself (like when something goes down the wrong pipe) and then its fine, it’s been doing that be for the past few days about once an hour. It’s just uncomfortable, so I’m trying to research it.

I haven’t weighed myself yet, I don’t feel any lighter but on Monday I will jump onto the trusty Wii Fit.

The Day After

2009-05-26T10:34:00.000-07:00

The day after – Well it went fine, all I wanted to do was have a shower, but I need to wait until to the day nurse staff was on so I could double check it was ok. I didn’t sleep very well last night, I just kept waking up every 20mins of so. It was interesting have the nurses checking my blood pressure every hour to make sure I was ok.

My roommate had a bit of a problem with not being able to burp, it told her my story of when I finally did it felt so good. She finally burped and then could not stop burping. I have only burped the once. We both got to check out at the same time, her husband was there first so I said bye! She lives in Whyalla (good distance away) and so I gave her my contact details just in case she wanted to catch up about the surgery stuff. She gave me hers too.

Luckily when Ben picked me up it was in his sister’s car, I don’t think I would have been able to get home without crying if I went in Ben’s car. When I got home, I went for a sleep – 2 whole hours! It was so good. Ben bought me some cup of soups, so I had one for lunch, as breakfast was a broth soup and jelly, which I didn’t have much of.

I pottered around the house and received a phone call about a job interview, I was thinking that I really did not want to go but I am going anyway ill manage. I’ll just take it easy. I went to bed a bit earlier than usual, about 7pm, and I woke up at 130am. I managed to drift back to sleep for an hour or so and now I’m awake, hence why I’m updating my blog!

I think from now ill blog every few days because really nothing is going to change much. So my new beginning has arrived, I hope it works out how I planned.

Surgery

2009-05-26T00:52:00.000-07:00

Surgery day! Well I woke up and got ready for the hospital and weighed myself, after my week I was expecting to put some on, but I lost 200grams, better than nothing, so pre op diet total weight loss was 4.8kg! Since I was fasting from Midnight, there was nothing to eat. Ben and I got to the hospital at 930am, I checked myself in and about 15mins later I was showed up to the waiting room. I was a bit tired probably due to the limited food. But I started to read my book. One lady went into have the same surgery at about 1030am, so I thought I would directly after her. It was 1230 when I looked at my clock on my phone and realised that my operation was not happening for a while.

The nurse came in to have me sign consent forms and I had to have a shower with some special stuff, and then I returned to the waiting area. It was 2pm when I was wheeled down to the theatres. I was in Theatre 2 and I was in waiting bay 2, the nurse said I should buy a lotto ticket! All I can remember is looking at the clock saying 220pm and then waking up at 315pm. I got all anxious because I really needed to burp but I couldn’t, so I started to cry. All of a sudden a small burp came out and I was happy! I felt more human.

After being in recovery for about 40 mins I was then wheeled to my room. I was in room 434. It was a shared room, but that’s ok. It’s always better to have someone there with you. I was alone at first then I remember Ben coming in with a bunch of flowers. When I was wheeled into my room another bunch of flowers with a teddy bear was waiting for me. It was from my eldest sister. That surprised me.

Ben apparently stayed for about 2 hours, I couldn’t tell, I thought he was only there for 15mins or so before I chucked him out. I just wanted to sleep. My roommate came in about 8, she was lovely. We compared cuts and how long we had to wait; she was the last surgery for the day. We got some jelly and vegetable soup and yoghurt for dinner; I could only get through a couple of mouthfuls of jelly. I did get a side effect to the surgery, I got the joy of Shoulder Tip pain, and it was painful.

All in all it went well. My roommate and I were up until 1am because we couldn’t sleep it was too uncomfortable. But we got through the night.

Day Fourteen - Pre Op diet

2009-05-24T02:29:00.001-07:00

Day Fourteen – tomorrow I am going into hospital and finally being banded! The last few days I’ve really not followed my diet and I think the scales will say that I have gained weight, but then again I may just surprise myself.

Today was my day where I went “this is my last day for 6 weeks to eat normal food, bring it to me” so I had my Milo for breakfast, and then had some crumpets with jam and butter. After checking out a few houses, Ben and I got some Subway cookies and an Iced Coffee. I had a Chicken Parmie for lunch and ate a few chips. For dinner, I made Ben cook me a lamb roast, omg heaven. I love lamb!!!! Ben is even going to make me a hot chocolate pudding for dessert.

Just re-reading my blog and noticing the food that I have eaten...omg! Am I just the ultimate sabotager I do really well, then I just stuff it up with the crap I have eaten, and it’s not even because I’m about to have my surgery, I do this all the time! I know I will stick to the diet placed upon me from tomorrow as I don’t want to be the cause of something going wrong with the band. Please it’s interesting to see and most importantly recognise!

Well I post again when I’m out of hospital my surgery is scheduled for noon. Stay safe!

Day Thirteen - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-23T15:38:00.001-07:00

Day Thirteen – this was ok, ok well I fell off the wagon but I’m really close to the surgery so I will be fine. Last night after dinner, Ben suggested we go out and get dessert! I had not eaten dessert in probably 4 weeks so I was all for it. We went down to the local supermarket and bought some Cornettos! I also decided I wanted to watch some movies and I picked up a big bag of Cheezels too. So that night I ate half of bag of chips and one ice-cream.

When I woke up I immediately thought of the other ice-cream sitting in the freezer, so guess what breakfast was a cornetto. For the rest of the day I only drank Pepsi Max and kept myself entertained by reading books. I caught up with a friend just after 3pm and had a coffee – well mine was a black tea of course and we were just chatting and chatting and chatting when her granddaughter asked her if she can have McDonalds for dinner.

I immediately messaged Ben to have him come and get me, but it was a bit hard due to the location of where she lived and the traffic due to an AFL game. So I ended up staying for dinner. We went to McDonalds and I think because I knew that I would no doubt never step place in a McDonalds again (well I hadn’t for over six months already) that I ordered a medium meal a McChicken and also a cheeseburger on the side. After dinner we ate a soft serve cone with a flake in it.

I came home after that, I did not feel guilty about what I ate because I know I’m never going into a McDonalds again. However I do need to stop just eating everything that I wouldn’t normally have anyway. Where is the purpose in that!

I just realised that I did all of this on the Thirteenth day – isn’t thirteen an unlucky number? Let’s see what Day Fourteen holds. Only 2 more sleeps to go

Day Twelve - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-22T01:48:00.000-07:00

Day Twelve – this was my last day at work. Everything went great food wise. I had my Milo, ate my carrots and celery and had my shake but we also had a meeting and I ordered a skinny latte so not bad. That was it for today (well my vegies are steaming on the stove as I type). I think I did great for the extreme mess I made yesterday!

At Work, they were so nice; they gave me a bunch of beautiful Orchids! I’m not really a flower person, don’t get me wrong, flowers are pretty, but I don’t know much about them. These were amazing! The person that picked them did an awesome job!

I also got a card from work as it is the last day in the department and a $50 voucher – this will come in handy when I desperately need new clothes! Another friend at work gave me her own card to wish me luck for the surgery. It’s amazing how it has come up so quick. I am so glad that it has. I’m just glad that it is finally here.

The hospital called today as well. They confirmed that they request my presence at 10am to check in with my surgery planned for 12 noon (well that’s if nothing gets in the way). So this weekend I’m going to catch up with a friend and then pack for the hospital. It’s finally here!

Day Eleven - Pre Op Diet - Endoscopy

2009-05-21T00:20:00.000-07:00

Day Eleven – well wasn’t today just interesting. I had to fast since 12am in order for everything to be ok with my endoscopy. I think it was because I knew I couldn’t eat anything that I was so hungry! I just wanted to get to the hospital and have the endoscopy over and done with so that I could home and eat something!

Ben and I got to the hospital at 745am, I filled in my form, got my sticker on my wrist and waited to be called. When I was called, they asked me more questions, gave me a gown to change into and some foot things. This is the first time I’ve ever been admitted to hospital and I was thinking, this is kind of fun. I guess I would only think this because having the Lapband Surgery is completely voluntary and if I was there for an accident or something like that then I guess I might be thinking other things.

They tried to make gurgle some horrible stuff. I tried too, but I’m not a good gurgler and omg this stuff tasted foul! It was my anaesthetists’ birthday and everyone was commenting on her. They tried to find a vein in my arm to draw some blood but couldn’t find one, so they took it from my hand! Omg you should have seen it! Wicked stuff. When Dr Kow came in automatically through the doors she wished her happy birthday. Within minutes of having a joke with Dr Kow I was out! I don’t even remember falling asleep. I just remember looking at the clock at 850am and the next thing I knew I was in Recovery at 920am!

The first thing I said to the nurse was “hmm I dribbled” she laughed and asked how I was going. I was fine, no sore throat nothing, I just wanted to see Ben and get out of there. They kept me in that recovery for 30 mins then transferred me to another recovery for another hour. I got changed and waited for Ben.

Ben finally got there and we headed towards home. Ben wanted to go to IKEA and I was really not in the mood, I wanted some food! IKEA has a restaurant in there and I decided why not. This was a bad decision as omg I wanted the cakes etc and I thought to myself “well jess, you don’t really need to be on this diet and Dr Kow did say to make sure I eat something with substance after”. So I got my tray and picked up a cup for soft drink, and dark chocolate cake and ordered a quiche and chips. Overall I think the cake and the chips was the worst thing.

Ben and I had a quick browse through IKEA after lunch (omg I want to buy some things when I finally get my house!) and when we were leaving I saw the $1 Hotdog sign and I was still a bit peckish so I got one of them too. I felt like such a pig! I was glad that we left the store because I’m sure I could have eaten more.

I needed to get some stuff at Woolies e.g. new deodorant etc and just as we were about to get to Woolies Ben goes “look Jess, Jam donut things, just small ones” I didn’t even look at Brumby’s when I walked past them, I’m getting used to not letting eyes go over them so then I don’t know what I’m missing. We finished out shopping and as we were heading back I checked out the food stuff Ben was talking about. I didn’t really get the big deal, it didn’t seem great, but the Iced Finger bun did! I kind of figured I’ve already blew it why not have one big last hurrah! And I handed over $1.50 for my finger bun.

When I got home, I thought to myself great no more temptations it’s now time to just concentrate fully on the last 3 days of your diet. When I decided to have a look in the fridge to get some Pepsi Max when I saw the Iced Coffee! I thought again, why not, last hurrah day! I then poured a glass and omg did I thoroughly enjoy that!

I called my Mum to let her know about the procedure, and it was good to have a chat with her, she is actually flying to the States on Sunday- lucky her, so I’ll have to sms her about my surgery.

Bens sister came back from Sydney yesterday and she bought back a couple of Krispy Kreme donuts – omg this is my weakness, I love these so much and I’m glad they don’t have a store here in Adelaide otherwise I’m sure I would 160kg+! She left a message saying she left a surprise in the Blue Container in the kitchen.

What do you know 4 Original Glazed Donuts!!!!! (Now don’t get me wrong I will share with Ben, I will only eat 2, but it has to be tonight so then tomorrow I’m strict on my diet).

Tonight’s dinner will be my steamed vegies and that will be the end of my “last hurrah” I don’t really feel that guilty as I know all the stuff I have eaten today is food that I will struggle with after the surgery.

Day Ten - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-20T03:23:00.001-07:00

Day Ten – I’m starting to think my life is boring. Nothing else changed with my diet except instead of grapes I ate two medium bananas (yah to free fruit at work). I’m a bit excited to go to sleep tonight, tomorrow I finally get to have the Endoscopy and that only means that my surgery is only days away! The next blog entry will be much more interesting as ill get to write all about the Endoscopy – wish me luck!

Day Nine - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-19T14:07:00.000-07:00

Day Nine was the same as any other day on this diet, not much to report. However, i did think that maybe my meal last night would make me hungrier throughout the day but it didn’t! I hope to lose 1kg this week. That would just be amazing!

Day Eight - Pre Op Diet - The Weigh In

2009-05-18T12:45:00.000-07:00

Day Eight was nerve racking! Had I lost weight? I couldn’t tell, sure I wasn’t eating much but did it have the right effect. I got up early and headed for the Wii Fit. I was thinking I would lose 2kg or so and that would be all. The scales told me a different story, I had lost

4.6kg!!!

Can you believe it! I’ve never lost that much in a week before it was like I was on The Biggest Loser (yes I have applied for that show before, not successful by the way) so I am now 130.9kg, I’m 900grams off my goal for my pre-surgery weight.

I continued with what I had usually been doing at work with food, and that was successful. However, for dinner last night Ben and I went out to the local pub. I ordered a Hawaiian Schnitzel and Chips. I really wanted some meat this was going to be my reward for doing an awesome job.

I know, I know – don’t reward yourself with food but my surgeon said I didn’t need to do the diet and I’m doing it anyway and I don’t see the harm for one meal. What’s the saying “Everything in Moderation”? Even though the meal was massive I could hardly eat it all and I literally gave half of my Schnitzel and chips to Ben. I was satisfied with what I ate even though it was a much smaller portion than usual but I guess I should be getting used to that.

Day Seven - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

Day Seven went ok; I think I could of done better however the Wii Fit tomorrow morning will let me know. I have noticed that I am bit snappier towards Ben. I think this may be due to limited meat in my diet. I had my Milo for breakfast then went and did some housework. We then went to go and have a look at houses and I knew that lunch was going to be out and about. We went to Woolies and I bought a Banana and drank 300ml of Iced Coffee this was at about 1130ish and I thought that that would be lunch. After a few more houses, Ben wanted to get “lunch” so at the place I just got a Fruit Smoothie and continued on with the day.

At about 3pm I was hungry!!! Lucky we went to Bens mum house and I had a cup of tea there to get my through. It’s now 6pm and I’m cooking my vegies, I think it’s going to be an early night for me. I’m so tired! Looking at houses can take it out of you. I guess tomorrows post will be more interesting with the Weigh In

Til Then *waves*

Day Six - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-16T03:49:00.000-07:00

Day Six was quite interesting I really wondered how I would go on a weekend, with no work to occupy myself. With a little help from a friend I think I did awesome! Tomorrow will be good too it is just Saturdays that I worry about. Today Ben and I slept through the alarm which of course made him late for work. This was a good thing for me because it meant that a few hours had already passed. As he was late, he wanted me to pick up some breakfast for him after I dropped him off (we only have one car, and I wanted it for today) being a good girlfriend that I am I went to the local Subway and got him a Bacon and Egg sub. At that stage I didn’t even think of ordering one for myself. They had a combo deal with a 6” breakfast and coffee for $4.95. I ended up with the coffee.

As I dropped it off to him and headed home, I started to drink my coffee. It wasn’t too bad, and with that thought I knew that there was lots of milk in it and therefore I substituted my Milo for the Subway Coffee. I then took a drive out to see a dear friend let’s call her Saz who I had not seen in a few weeks. It was 11ish by the time I got there and Ben was finishing work at 530. I had 5 hours with my friend, which was awesome.

She made me a Tea – no milk or sugar and we started to chat. It was just after 1 when we decided to go and get some lunch; I was going to just grab a Garden Salad or Fruit Salad for lunch, when we ended up in Woolies to gather our lunch purchases. Note: Woolies, not great with single meals. I was walking around the store trying to work out what could I get? My trusty carrots and celery and Optislim shake was at home. I decided that I would just get an Iced Coffee. I don’t know what was wrong with me and locating my favourite drink but I just couldn’t find it. As I walking down one of the isles I noticed little puree tubs of fruit. Ding Ding – lunch! I headed to the checkout with my Puree Fruit and Coke Zero!

I thought I would end up eating 2 tubs, but I only ate one (is my stomach already shrinking?) By about 4pm I was feeling hungry. It was time to pick up Ben and head home. As soon as I walked in the door I headed straight to the kitchen to steam my vegies!

Tomorrow is the last day of the week of my own Pre Op Diet and I’m anxious to jump on the Wii Fit to see my progress, but that will need to wait until Monday as I don’t want to end up jumping on the Wii Fit everyday just to know my weight.

Day Five - Pre Op Diet

2009-05-15T02:57:00.000-07:00

Day Five can you believe it? I’m five days into my diet and its going good. I really think it’s because I know I have an end date to this madness of vegies. Today was just like all the other days, except today I was so busy with work I had to force myself to eat the rest of my grapes.

One of the girls at work let’s call her Em – she asked me to go to the pub next door after work for a drink, my instinct told me say No, keep focused on your diet and you will be fine. Then I did think about it a bit more, why couldn’t I go for a drink after work? Just because Vodka, Lime and Lemonade tastes sooooo good, it didn’t mean that I couldn’t have a Diet Coke at the pub and be social. So I went.

I’m starting to make behavioural changes that I wouldn’t have ordinarily completed ... this is going to be a great life